Loose Pages
Entry 1 : The Boy With Questions
Sometimes being an overthinker can be overwhelming because we don’t always know how to express the million thoughts that float through the human brain, and we were never really taught to.
So they stay there, moving around in our minds, waiting for a place to go.
I read around 5 articles today and 3 of them stuck with me
https://open.substack.com/pub/wickedwitchofdasouth/p/youme-vs-themme?r=69a29k&utm_medium=ios
Now this article made me view what failure feels like from someone else’s perspective and what failure can do to ambition , and it’s been difficult to deal with that especially this year , I’ve been taking more Ls then W’s but I am making progress in the stuff I’m doing
https://open.substack.com/pub/felowithlove/p/surviving-my-ex-0e3?r=69a29k&utm_medium=ios
Now, I didn’t really want to read this one because I found the pain I felt in my throat very unbearable when I read Part One.
So I had to lock in to read Part Two, and this one just took me back to my first love, Amo. I started reflecting on the situation again, how she was my profile picture, my wallpaper, and how I’d just be flexing my relationship fr.
Only to realise that, aye man, she was cheating on me the entire time. I just thought she preferred the low-key way, but nah, she just didn’t want anyone knowing about me except her friends, who were also running a similar program.
It low-key hurts when I think about how long it took me to finally say,
“I’m ready to move on.”
This one asked the same questions young me had, and I was always told that
“School is the foundation of intelligence. Not all humans are born gifted with intelligence and curiosity. School just jump-starts that in most people and gives us all the same starting point.”
But that statement just opened doors to more questions ,deeper ones, in fact.
What’s the universe? What’s humanity? What’s the point of existence?
I asked all these questions and got no answers. I asked how letters and numbers came about, who just agreed to call grass
“grass.”
Well, I got the answer to that one, but still.
I was a boy with all these questions that soon faded because of a scheduled system, and answers they only wanted me to know ,not answers to the questions I had.
I never really saw it as a means to control people, but the more I think, the more I realise how school is designed to create obedient people. For society, it kind of is good (that’s debatable) but for certain individuals, it’s not.
Individuals who see and think about things most ignore.
‘Cause, I mean, you only live once. Some people just choose not to bother themselves with loose ends that don’t really concern them.
My mind is a dodge hellcat rn
Overall, I just want to reflect on the decisions I’m about to make and the ones I’ve made in the past.
As for Act 5, emang nyana, you’re gonna get it .
I’m just going through thoughts fr. I know there’s a nigga that’s gonna be in the comments like,
“Emona re emetse Act 5.”
Loose Pages is more or less going to be random, based on whatever is on my mind at the time , whether it’s because of an article I read or just a random realisation.
It’s really just me, myself, and I debating and debunking my own thoughts.
See y’all ka Act 5.
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